| It has been 3 months since my breakup. well 3months 11days, but who is counting. When I learned that he had been messing around for over a year with several women not just one, it was like finding the missing peices to a jigsaw. Things all started to make sence. He wont talk to me, have had the odd text and yes he helped out with momey, but that will stop now I guess. He has found a woman to love, god help her, well he found her a year ago, I always knew there was more between them. If he chatted to her or other women before coming to bed he would be able to sex with me. I have felt unatractive for a long time,. i have lost loads of weight, and i feel good. But now I find that I am attractive, men find me sexy so what was his problem??
But its over in my heart as well as in my head. I do not want him back ever. If I never saw him again it wouldn't be long enough. I will struggle, i live on incapacity benefit. I have a dog and 3 cats. The cats may have to go, but I am having trouble getting hold of the rspca!! But what ever happens it will all be up. I have made it this far. I have a lot of love and passion to give the right man.
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| Well after everything it ended. Badly on my part, its been 4 weeks. He is with someone new. But still cheating on her too. Found out he is a serial cheater and a lier.
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| just as things seem to be looking up, they crash down again, had a row this morning over something trivial. He still has not tried to have sex with me!!! ample oppotunity at the weekend, but spent most of it in bed, without me....I just dont know what to do. It is making me feel un attractiveand unloved. I was so pleased this week, i am onlyt half a stone heavier than i was when i met him, 8 years ago.
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| well still no wiser really. chris won't talk to me about what he wants. looks like i am just gonna have to grin and bear it. i love him so much i will do anything |
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| dear diary,lol. my parrtner says he loves me, but i dont think he loves me as a lover!!! what do i do? |
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